Dream or nightmare!?

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I’ve lost count of the number of times I dreamt I was back in school again, finding my way through familiar hallways and classrooms. And every single time, it’s always the same feeling of anxiety. It’s the same emotion, the same fear. And then when i wake up, it would take a good 5 minutes before I could process that It was just a dream. And the moment it sinks in, I can feel my heart racing, like I was being chased by a manananggal.hahaha! I’d feel relieved and would literally utter a prayer of “thank you, lord!”. Apparently, the fear of not being able to graduate because of P.E (i know, right!?) has been etched in my core memory. Lol!

You see, P.E was never a favorite subject. I remember I dropped my P.E 1, because it was scheduled too early in the morning and I had to travel at least 2 hours to be able to come on time.What a lame excuse! lol And because I wasn’t a very good student back then (I’m sorry i was not a good example), I kept coming late in class and eventually decided to just drop the subject . And it wasn’t just once, but TWICE people! Shame on me that was a waste of tuition fee! (And I like how it rhymes haha)

Since then, I tried to stay away from taking P.E subjects and so ended up taking them on my final year in school. While all my classmates were occupied with thesis and OJTs, there i was trying to juggle everything. I’d come to my thesis class sweating from playing basketball to changing back to my school uniform and to running to my next class. I was all ngarag in every way.hahaha! I feared not passing my P.E subjects more than my major subjects, and I started to feel how embarrassing it would be to fail P.E and not graduate because of that. Imagine how happy I was when I saw my name on the list of graduating students for that semester. I was too overjoyed I wanted to jump around and cry. hahah!

It’s amazing how a certain period of your life keeps coming back to you in a form of a dream or nightmare. I keep asking myself why does it keep coming back? It sure feels scary, weird, crazy and funny all at the same time. So this must be how it feels to be haunted by your past? LOL! If I could back to college, I’d probably do much better than dropping my P.E subjects, but life would have been different too. Dropping those 2 P.E subjects before have led me to this life now. My failures led me to Jesus, and I couldn’t be more grateful for his redeeming grace.

Have you ever had that kind of dream?

How did your weekend go?

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Oh Stress. I used to love weekends, you know, back when weekends used to be my non-working days. Lol! But now things have changed. Sometimes I wish I have the regular working days (Mondays – Fridays) but when I start to think about it, I still feel like having 4 days off is better than 2 days off on a weekend. Haha!

So last Sunday was another stressful day and when I get all too emotional  about work, i start enumerating in my head why I think I still have the best job ever! Lol! Have i mentioned that i work from home? Okay, so that’s one of the million reasons why my job, though not the most appealing one, is still considered my best option for now. I don’t have to travel to go to work, I can play and cuddle with my boys during breaks, i can dress in my house clothes, and i don’t have to take a bath early in the morning (that’s gross, i  know) specially during winter. Haha!

Right after work, the husband asked me if I wanted to go to the beach. Under normal circumstances, I would have responded “I’m so tired, I don’t wanna go out”, but for some reason, I felt like I needed some fresh air and I just wanted to see something peaceful to calm my mind. The husband was quite surprised I said yes, with no hesitation. To his delight he even had to ask me again and again to make sure he heard me right. Haha! I know I am not the most out-going person and oftentimes, the husband thinks I have such a boring personality but I know that’s what he loves most about me even when he doesn’t wanna admit it. Lol! And so we had a very spontaneous picnic by the beach!

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Because it was unplanned, we just had to grab anything we can find in the pantry – cookies, coconut drinks, some chips, and also got ourselves 2 boxes of pizza. We arrived late in the afternoon, it was low tide and the boys, specially brent, thoroughly enjoyed. We played and laughed and I felt really good. The boys had fun and I enjoyed my time lying on the  sand, looking up the sky, thanking the lord for how good he is and how awesome this life he has blessed me with. And at that point, I felt like I couldn’t ask for anything more. Oh thank God for weekends, really!

I hope you all had a great weekend too!

Rise and shine!

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Top of the morning! It’s time to rise and shine! It’s getting colder in this side of this world. It’s that time of the year when going out of bed early in the morning already becomes a struggle. Lol. But it’s a very good day and I can’t wait to get it started. Today’s plan includes cleaning, washing, playing with brent and hopefully, if di ko kapuyon, mag exercise! In my mind, I want to do some squats, planks, and run 10k. Haha! You know how your mind thinks of things you want to do but you end up doing nothing? Well, it happens to me all the time. Hahaha!

Enjoy your day, you guys! Have an awesome, productive day! 🙂

 

 

Keep going.

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If there’s one advice I’d give myself today, it would be : keep going, keep trying. There are days when I feel like I’m at the end of the tunnel and there’s nowhere to go, and everything just seems like fading. I guess, everyone goes through that, if not, then I’m doomed. haha. Oh life! I know I have to keep trying  even if that means failing over and over again, because life doesn’t just stop because I fail at a certain point.

Life is a learning process. I learned that there is also wisdom in trying. And just like in all things, there is a time for everything. As much as it is important to try and keep trying, it is also equally important to know when to stop trying, to just let it go, to accept that some things don’t and won’t work out the way we want them to. But the very good news is, even if things don’t happen the way we plan it out, life is still good. It is good not because we have what we want, or because life is perfect but because life in itself is a blessing – and a blessing is always good and worth celebrating.

So today, I remind myself that life is good. I don’t have to have all things work all together, or have everything in order to be grateful. If I fail, I will try again. If it’s meant for me, it’s gonna come running after me. If it’s not, then something else better is coming my way. I’ll keep trying, keep going and keep learning, keep living  and I’ll keep thanking God for this amazing life. I would’t have it any other way.

Childlike heart

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Oh to be a child again! Simple, carefree, fun-loving, worry-free days, how I miss thee! But as they say, life happens. And reality kicks in, we all grow up, and everything changes.

The other night, while we were putting Brent to sleep, he said, “Let’s pray first!”. So we held hands, the three of us, and started praying. I started saying something when he interrupted, “Thank you for mommy and daddy, papa Jesus. Thank you for the food, for the bread with chocolate (spread), rice fish and vinegar (what he had for lunch, pinakurat vinegar and soy sauce like a true bisdak haha), for the tv and rescue bots, for thomas and friends, for my toys..” And the long list goes on. I was trying my best not to laugh but his gratefulness really blessed me. He didn’t ask anything, He was busy being grateful. God must’ve been smiling hearing these little ones pray. Their hearts are just so pure and innocent. They dont worry about the future. They simply thank the lord for what they  have and continue to believe that God is the giver of all.

Today, I will remember all the good things the Lord has done for me. I will recall the many good things He has done in the past. I will choose to count my blessings and focus on what i have. I will choose to praise and thank the lord for His love, His grace, for who He is in my life, and for what He Continue reading

Hello Feb!

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Oh 2016, please slow down a bit! So tomorrow’s Feb 14, I’d be expecting to see lots of flowers and chocolates and cheesy messages all over my timeline. LOL! Love is everyone’s favorite subject and who’s to blame? 🙂 Love is really such a beautiful thing, and though people will have their own definition of love, I think we can all agree that love is the one thing we can’t live without. 🙂

How’s your 2016 been so far? I have been taking mine one day at a time. Life isn’t a bed of roses, but it sure is very good. Waking up each day alive and healthy is such a blessing! I try to remind myself everyday that it is an opportunity to do better, to be better, and boy, what a struggle it is. haha! At times it is super kapoy, but I need to press in. At the end, I know everything’s gonna be okay.

Enjoy your day, beautiful people! Happy hearts day to you all!

Hello 2016!

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Happy new year, you guys!

2015 just flew like that. I am overwhelmed. I have been on hiatus for the longest time and it feels like eternity since I have last updated this blog. BUT the new year is always a good excuse to start afresh, and talk about prayer list.

It’s been a yearly tradition for me (and my little family) to write our prayer list at the start of each year. The lord has just been really good, and when I look back at the year that passed, I just can’t help but be overjoyed. The lord has answered our prayers in ways I can only imagine. A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!

Have you written your prayer lists down? I encourage you to do so. You’d be amazed at how God does things. I still am and I really excited for this year! I can’t wait to see what God has in store and what the future holds.

Wishing you all the happiest 2016! The lord bless each and one of you.

 

Dear Brent

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Dear Brent,

I can’t believe you’re growing up so fast! It overwhelms my heart every single time I think about the day I first held you in my arms. Everything seems surreal. It’s unbelievable how you’ve grown so much in 2 years! I couldn’t help but gush at how lucky I am to be able to love you and call you as my own. You are my glimpse of heaven!

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You make me so proud and happy of just being you. Your intelligence amazes me. At 2 years old, you know the alphabet like the back of your hand. Haha! You are able to recognize shapes, colors and can count numbers like you’ve had it memorized since you were born. LOL! I guess kids your age are really smart, but I am happy to see your eagerness to learn and the desire to know more about the things of this world. I see your eyes glow every time you see or learn something new. Your vocabulary is growing too! You are now able to communicate what you want, to firmly say NO when you don’t like it or say please and thank you when you need something. You know how to make mommy and daddy happy by saying “i love you” and to say “sorry” when you know you did something wrong. Oh my little boy, mommy’s heart is filled with so much love for you.

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If only I could keep you in this age forever! But you must grow and I must let you see and explore the world and experience how wonderful life is. 🙂 But for now, I shall enjoy cuddling, kissing, tickling, hugging and loving you. Life is good as long as you are beside me. 🙂 I love you more than I could ever say.

Love,

Mommy

Open Letter: Happy Birthday, Marcial aka JunJun!

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Dear Marcial,

(I know it’s a few days late, but because it’s your birthday, you deserve some kind words.  Hahaha! :P)

Thank you for keeping me updated with the latest news in Cebu/ITPark/NCR. Haha! You are one heck of a news reporter. LOL. Your “chikas” keep me entertained and it’s making me feel like I have never left Cebu. 🙂 You are a friend for keeps. Thank you for laughing at my corny jokes and for sharing your even cornier ones. Haha! It has always been a pleasure talking to you thru our endless facebook chats. LOL! And I think you need to thank me for reintroducing you to Instagram (you know what I mean). Hahaha!

I wish you nothing but happiness in everything (and I truly mean it). I hope life  brings you pleasant surprises, takes you to more happy adventures, and favors you with everything you have ever wished for. You are a kind soul. Your love for your family is admirable. And your passion and dedication (naa ba?) to your work is really commendable! Hahah!

Your life is a blessing to many! You are the best brother your siblings could ever have, and I’m sure your parents (wherever they maybe right now) are most proud of you.  🙂 Always know your worth. 🙂 You may, at times, be pressed with challenges, or may have to face certain battles, but know that you are able to overcome anything:) You may fail at times (we all do), but your mistakes and failures will never define you. God’s love is and will always be your saving grace. 🙂

Have the happiest birthday (week) ever! May you always be reminded that God loves every bit of you, and He loves you for all that you are. He always has the best intentions at heart for you 🙂 At times, you may not understand life, but you can always trust that God is working EVERYTHING out for your own good. He will turn even the bad things for your benefit. Trust God’s unshakeable, constant, consistent, always reliable, immeasurable, limitless, unconditional love for you. 🙂

Enjoy your birthday getaway!

Uhm, life lately…

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Hello Hello!

I don’t know how it happened, but it’s already April! Just how time flies! Sometimes, I really just wanna freeze time and enjoy the moment of being in the moment (if that makes sense). But there are also times when I really just want to get the day over and done with and move forward. There are happy days, there are bad days. And that is a fact.

Yesterday wasn’t such a good day at work. It wasn’t totally ‘bad’ but it was tough. And it’s during these times when I have to remind myself that it’s okay to have bad days. Life is not perfect. As much as we would all like to have perfect lives, it’s not just gonna happen. Some of us can pretend, but at the end of the day, we all know it’s not just possible. Bad days make me us all human. It keeps us all grounded. 🙂

Today, I celebrate life’s flaws and imperfections. I have finally come to terms with life. Not all things will go my way, but I am more than certain that no matter how things may turn out, it’s always going to be good for me. 🙂 As Psalm 118:24 says, “This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.”

Have a happy Tuesday!